Me, Myself and I…

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I am strong, I am beautiful, I am happy, I dream, I work hard, I make my own decisions, I challenge myself, I make mistakes, I learn, I am achieving,… every day…again and again…I love me, I love my life, I love every day. I only have one life. It might be long, It might be short. But it is mine. I choose how I live it.

I couldn’t wait to hit 18, the magic age, as I saw it, where nobody will be able to tell me what to do ever again. Freeeeeeeeedom. As much as I loved them both I couldn’t wait to leave my parents house and see the world. My reasoning was, if I do not succeed in what I wanted to do, I can always come home. It was a safety blanket if you like, the excitement hightened and fear disappeared. Life is full of surprises, good and bad, and it was down to me to carve a path for myself, deal with the obstacles as they arose, keep learning, keep working and dreaming, and be me. At 18 years old I decided I will not have children before I hit 30. I wanted to know myself first and discover myself deeper. Get the partying out of the way, travel, discover what I like to eat, do, who is worthy of my time, what I like or dislike about men….

”I am not here to live up to your expectations I am here to live up to mine.’ Bruce Lee said once.

And I do, simply because that way I am not ever disappointed. I know what I am capable off, what I can do, achieve, I know what I want, I am living to my expectations and they are a lot higher than anyone could ever expect from someone else. My being is not overburdened by doing something wrong or doing it the way nobody else is or wonder what would people say. I really do not care. I am me and proud of it. I learn from mistakes, I am kind, polite and respectful and most importantly I live without regrets.

Now that I have decided how and where |I wanted to live, what I wanted to do, how I wanted to be…..they arrived…one after the other with nearly 2 years between them.

Head Tidy up…

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I decided what I want to look like at 18 years of age. I like my hair long and I am proud to be a brunette. I like a fringe too – gives me a more sophisticated look. I use make up – mascara and good quality foundation never leave my side. As eyeshadow I like natural colors, browns with a hint of sparkle. My favorite color is black but I also like to wear white in the summer. Dark blues, greens, reds, greys and patterns also find their way into my wardrobe occasionally. It’s more of a sporty cum casual cum classic style. I like trainers, platform sandals and boots but also have a pair of high heels for special occasions in the back of my cupboard. I wear slippers around the house.

I like my surroundings free of clutter. I am not a hoarder – I only keep things that have touched the bottom of my heart. On my kitchen top you will find a kettle, a toaster, a kitchen towel holder and a tea bag jar. There are no pots of flowers (discovered that I am not green fingered), no ornaments, no boxes or pots gathering dust, cooking books are in the draw. All other electric appliances are stored away since they are not used daily anyway. The cupboards are not overflowing – how many cups, glasses, plates, bowls, pots/pans, baking trays does anyone actually need? The dining room table has a vase of real roses gracing the middle. The floor is clear.

My living room is also clean of ‘dust collectors’ as I like to call them. There are sofas, TV is on the wall, cupboard below has one picture frame on it, beside a sofa is a coffee table where two mats and a whisky decanter are placed. The floor is clear.

The bathroom is my worst room with toothbrushes, toothpaste and soap dispenser on the sink. If I could put them somewhere else I would gladly do so but these are used daily. The window ledges are empty. The shower has a shampoo, a conditioner and a shower gel – one of each. All the creams, shaving necessities, towels are stored away in the cupboard under the sink. There are two washing bins in the corner – two, waist tall, wooden white boxes. All the cleaning bottles are under the kitchen sink. The floor is clear.

The bedrooms have beds, cupboards with all the clothes hung/folded and bedside draws for a lamp to be displayed on. Yes, boys have Xboxes but the games are stored away. The sets of draws are serving the purpose of being storage for knickers, pants, socks and hairdryer.

Well organized or just over the top?

I really do not mind how you perceive it but it works for me. It does not take me 2 hours to get ready in the morning, the house is tidy but so is my mind. I can enjoy the morning and wake up slowly. New day new beginning. I have time to drink my coffee in peace, watch the news, organize breakfast, and face the world ready for any challenges it might throw my way. I count my blessings and start the day with a smile on my face. I lock the door and go to work, still smiling.